Yes I Am! So I’m going to stand up and testify, well write, but testifying all the same ; ) It’s been so long since I’ve tried to build anything with someone, I wonder if I know how. Maybe I’ve been “just fucking” by choice for so long I forgot the ingredients that go into making “it last forever“.
It’s not that, I take sex lightly I don’t! I just haven’t used that part of my brain in a long time, so “building” is a bit foreign to me. But for sex to happen I have to be Really attracted and into him for us to even take it there, plus everything turns me off! That’s why I tend to go long periods with no sexual partner. I’m the girl who thinks about Sex all the time but rarely gets it:/
“Choosey Lover”!
The last time I tried to “build” something, was years ago. I haven’t even shared my bed with a dude since my Ex moved out like 4years ago. “Let’s go to your place” is the song I sing!
However, if I am into you.. Then I don’t second-guess that urge I go with it. But it’s like I rely on the sex to show him how I feel. Sometimes the words just escape me so ” I let my body talk”! My feelings are, how can you doubt my interest when I give it you, the way I do?
Case in point! Friday night I had an impromptu meet up with an old Friend/Flame! He’s just someone that is just so special to me. We started out as friends and then we gradually (slow as a snail is more accurate) became more. Somewhere down the line things got blurred he got flaky and confusing, so I ended it.
Of course we didn’t end drama less, in true Nicole fashion I spazzed out on him, told him where the f@ck to go, how the hell to get there, and which highway to take! I had to go hard, because well to be honest with all of his confusion he still got close to me, only to find out he was suffering from the “Hurry Up and be mine Nicole, No wait hold up I’m crazy, pump your breaks, hold my space!”
And you guys already know ” There are no reservations here @ Casa de Nicole, it’s a first come first serve establishment!”
So Friday I’m up to my usual tricks, food and drinks with one of my “Golden Girls” Aisha. We started out in Chelsea@Rub BBQ for some barbecue with Grey Goose,Soda and a twist of lime. (9O cals with zero carbs Then we made our way to a swanky wine bar called Nectar in Harlem. Since I was in his backyard, and on that Goose, I let him know I would be there.
Poof! Here he comes to join us for drinks. Immediately we catch up, like it hasn’t been 9 months of down time. Well face-to-face time, since he has been reaching out, but he was getting the eye roll each time he did. We share stories, emotions and secrets. He opens up about his love for me, and that he sees me as his best friend, that he wants to one day marry. Awwww the whole night was so warm and touching, if this was a movie Alicia Keys “Diary” would be our soundtrack! Yup he moved Nicole.
We go from Wine to Patron Shots as we made our way to the next spot without Aisha, called 17below also in Harlem. The night just got better as the time passed. So of course I want the “real” party to continue upstairs @his place.
A couple times during our conversation my mind wandered and I thought about the first time we did it, I was on top and he said: Nicole clothes don’t do you justice, look at you, you’re beautiful!!” What? Omg!! Get me Bodied!!” Lol (I AM Sasha Fierce! lol ) Yup I want that Old Thang back, its a quarter to 11!
Unfortunately he had already made plans to meet up with his friends, since this was an impromptu type of deal..”What -F-in-ever!” lol
He begins to tell me how tonight isn’t a good night, because all we could have is a quickie! ” Ok, So what?” He tells me that after the night we had and the things we shared we shouldn’t just go upstairs and f@ck, since there won’t be any spooning and no “Good morning, what do you want for breakfast?” (Luv his pancakes).
Shit”! “Damn you”! “I’m pissed!” You talk in your sleep anyway!LOL! It has been a while for me and you, why can’t we? And its You damn it! “What’s Peanut Butter without the Jelly”?
What is this Fool talking about?
This Big Baby needs her bottle to go to sleep. Bring me upstairs and knock it down then go to your party. No love loss, its love gained!
So long street bickering made short, in a horny drunken rage I walk off and head home. (Aww poor baby) I make it like 2 blocks before I realize he’s walking right next to me on the street.
My mouth was open, I was so shocked! That’s so not a move he would normally make, but me walking away is. So he walks up to me smiles and tells me to ” shut up, let’s go upstairs!” Aww I love you!
The End!
Ok so sure I got my way in the end, but was his proposed ending better? What do you think?
Sure he said I treat him like a piece of meat, but to that I say: “You’re my piece of meat, I can be your loyal customer. You know much I love Steak! “
PSA- to you Mister man (Yes You Cone Head!)” IF and only IF you’ve come back into my life to only Confuse me, not here to Love Me the way You Say You Do, remember I see Confusion as the Devil, so I will rebuke you Satan be gone!”
lol girl..you pouted your way into his bed..I honestly think his end would have been better..BUT..seems like you weren’t wanting anything more but sex and you got it soo..For you that was a great end..
Then we made our way to a swanky wine bar called Nectar in Harlem. Since I was in his backyard, and on that Goose, I let him know I would be there.
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lol girl..you pouted your way into his bed..I honestly think his end would have been better..BUT..seems like you weren’t wanting anything more but sex and you got it soo..For you that was a great end..