When I was in my teens and twenties I was so full of life and promise. I had many hopes and dreams with the determination to see them through. I’ve always had a very privileged life for which I am grateful for.
My parents were not rich but were hard workers. They made sure I had everything I needed and even what I wanted.
The world I lived in consisted of very little pain-that is until my first relationship. It was then that I learned what real pain and suffering was all about. I was just about to hit my thirties when we broke up.
As the years went by I began to see why people become jaded, cynical, sad and depressed. You slowly begin to loose faith in people and trust is no longer taken lightly.
Even though for a period of time I lived in a bubble devoid of all these horrid realizations I can now see why loved its safety. Let’s face it as wonderful as life can be it can also be just as unbearable.
There are so many questions that are left unanswered. We have ministers who preach their “Truth” and we have scientists who explain their “Theories” yet there are still question marks. One question leads to another and so on and so forth.
One of the biggest issues that I have in my life right now (I know Im not alone) is financial. Money was tight before the economy collapsed but after the fall my pockets to an even bigger turn for the worse.
The beauty business has been really good to me until these past few years. It is amazing how life can take such a rapid turn for the better or worse. Life is like a marriage that we are forced into without our consent.
What I love about myself is that not matter how many blows life sends me to try and knock me down I keep plowing forward. There is this feeling in my soul that keeps telling me I shall rise again. Although I’m at my lowest financially I am at my highest physically, mentally, and spiritually.
I am a motivator, I am a teacher, I have an eye for fashion, I’m a listener, I am a jazzercise instructor, I’m a professional hairstylist, I am a friend, Im a lover, I nuture like a mother, I discipline like a father, I am your sister and your brother. I have my doubts and fears but these are ingrediants including in the mixture of life. Don’t let anyone tell you different.
Living in a world that seems to continually take a turn for the worst I feel that the many gifts and talents I have to offer are going to be very valuable one day. I find it comforting to know that all of my trials continue to make me stronger and I know for sure that I shall rise again like the Phoenix from its ashes.
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