As I sat on the arm of my mother’s plush sofa eating my Raisin Brand Crunch cereal, I looked out the sliding glass doors at her lovely back yard. I began to remember my dear friend Lynn who I let live with me free of charge as she was down on her luck. She liked to tell people that I adopted an unemployed librarian.
She would often get frustrated about her life and the position she was currently in and I would tell her to enjoy the safety of my home and allow yourself to think about your next chapter for your life. Today I now stand in the same shoes she was in only I’m living in my mother’s home…AGAIN..
It’s almost hard to believe that several years ago I was running my own business, relationship, and my household at the same time. I was paying not one, but two rent payments on two places, light bills, two car notes etc. with very little help from my ex. It amazes me to think of all I accomplished in my twenties. I must say I am a Bad Bitch.
As I write this, It’s five minutes until 10am on a thursday and I only have one client on the books today. I have no idea what to do with all the time I have available these days so I chose to write. These past few weeks my mind seems to be very clear and I seem to be finding peace with my current circumstances. When our lives suddenly change it’s never an overnight process to grow accustom to it. Some people take longer than others and some just won’t get used to their current circumstances.
For instance, I have a client who built a new house after hurricane Katrina and after 6 years she told me that she is just not happy with the house and is going to start finishing the work on her old house so that she can move back in it.
I don’t intend to live with my mother forever but I needed some time to be taken care of. My mother washes my clothes for me and she lets me be me and I let her be her. There are times that I get frustrated because my life is bunched up in a small room and I have to share a bathroom with my step dad but I am grateful to be able to stay rent free.
For some reason we always think the grass is greener on the other side but it’s not! Most people who are in relationships wish they were single again and those who are single wish they were in a relationship. I’m the first to raise my hand to that.
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